JUMP!!!

hey guys!!!

jump is officially airing!!!! Yay!!! Did you guts watch? Haha!!! It is a true blue comedy that reflects the education system in Singapore :P It's really good!!! Go watch if you haven't!!!

That's all for now guys, :)

Currently at tp waiting for @smileyraeann to finish cheerleading :)

Cheery cheers :)

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家家有本难念的经- every family has a difficult mantra?

Today was a holiday for both my younger sisters coz it's a make-up for sat's vesak day holiday. In my opinion, teachers wants a break...but well, I do think teachers deserve such a break :)

So my title...it's a lil odd from the translation isn't it? haha!! I mean...every family has their own problem that others do not see. I personally feel and I know that I am insecure and super sensitive. But I can't help it...I was raised in a way that caused me to be like that...then why isn't my sisters like that? I can then say that it's because I was treated quite indifferently in my family. As the eldest, but not really eldest coz I'm just the elder of the twins. My parents made me responsible for things that I'm not even suppose to be responsible about, my younger sisters...especially my twin sis. I shouldn't and can't be responsible for a person that is 4 minutes younger than me...doesn't make any sense does it? that's like asking a kindergarten class, those born in january to teach those born in feburary. It is utter bullshit.

I cycled just now from my house to Thomson Plaza :) It's just a 10 min cycle? hahaha!!! I was then discussing about my mother with my younger sister. I feel that she is a very typical singaporean...and then I got offended when my sis said my character was like my mom...I was like NO!!!! I in every way am different from my mother...maybe in certain ways but not TOTALLY the same :) 

My mother uses a singaporean teaching method. Authoritative method. She makes her children scared of her before they are scared of anything else. Yes, it's that bad...I know that my mum reads my blog...however, I'm saying all these things for her to change if she wants to improve her relationship with us. I mean seriously, there is a lot of things we are hiding from her and that is so not good. It's not like every kid have to tell their parents everything..but not telling their parents anything is bad. So...I think if I she knew what style to use so that we can become 'close friends' with her, she'd be glad :)

Over protective, can cause a child to be STUPID. Yes, that means to be a retard in life. Coz in life, studies isn't everything...if it is, most probably, your child will grow up to be a machine (which means, will move when ordered specifically what to do) So, C'mon! I mean, no parent will want such a child right? Unless, the parent is insecure herself in a way that she wants a puppet that will listen and adore her...My mom always talks about things she could achieve when she was younger and at that time without a father. I mean, STOP TALKING ABOUT THE PAST! It's over and besides, I have both my parents' that love me.

Then I was talking about the curfew my mom set for me. 10pm. my sis then said that she has a friend whom is 21 years old and has that curfew..I could only imagine his pain. I feel that 10 pm is seriously early...at least before 12am! I'm young and I have the energy to stay up late and beside I have the time to wake up late the next day. It couldn't be that I do that when I'm only 30 right? I'm only young once and parents know that...so why can't they understand that we are young and we're meant to have fun?!

I understand that they are concern about their child especially, daughters, I mean, if I were to dope and smoke, I would have done so back in secondary school or in MDIS. But I didn't, so why can't they just implement a little trust and let me go out and come back late? I'll probably catch the last train back...

By saying all these, I don't mean that I don't love my parents, I LOVE MY PARENTS. and I respect them, however, I only respect them because they are my parents...I mean if they aren't my parents and they have such characters, honestly, I will think them of losers.

I think my mother should go out and have fun with her friends occasionally or join some class. She needs social life! Family, work and God shouldn't be only her things in life...We need more. 

I've never seen my mother shed a tear, but I really do hope she cries when nobody is with her. She needs to channel her unpleasant feelings into tears and release them instead of bottling up and become a time bomb that endangers my sisters and my life. Back when I was 9, I remembered, that I was a problem to my mother and to my form teacher..I remembered, I dislike that teacher very much coz he held my recess time to make us do work. I felt like a donkey...all work and no rest. Being 9 and I knew that I had to channel my anger towards that teacher out. After PTC one day, (obviously, the teacher talked bad about me and I felt really bad about myself) my mother scolded me and then I went back to my room sulking, took my favourite notebook and started writing lines something like *I hate Mr *** * over and over again. I planned to write till I got rid of that lousy feeling and anger. However, my mother upon knowing I did that, she snatched my book, gave me a slap on my face and tore that page off and told me *how can you write such things?!* I just cried in anger.

I really thought I did nothing wrong, I was writing it on MY notebook (like a diary) and I was harming no one..besides I didn't write I wanted to kill that teacher. I then learnt my lesson that letting my anger out this way will cause me to get a slap on my face and that I should bottle up my anger.

I constantly have the feeling of helplessness and maybe that's why I'm afraid of everything. I need something with me constantly, not just a presence but physically with me. That's why I want a bf that will be with me all the time. But I think I'll pity my bf coz he has to keep reassuring me.

Oh well, look at the time! Gotta go slp...talk more next time alright? :)

Cheery Cheers :)

I can talk to my computer

I was just meddling with my computer at this unearthly hour. Speech recognition wasn't as easy as I thought it would be.

Speech recognition was much of an idiot. Somehow typing is easier than speech recognition. Speech recognition couldn't catch what I was saying most of the time. It is really frustrating. I think I'd just need to get used to talking to the speech recognition in a fake the British accent. I find it very ironic that I've actually having to speak like that and it isn't my English oral.

Speech recognition is quite off a hassle. I wish speech recognition could speak singlish. I actually taught the computer the word singlish... I got so frustrated that I stop talking and started typing...which in turn is much faster...so exasperating! :/

Well, I got a new plan to follow so goodnight every one ;)

Cheery Cheers :)

Fabulous ;)

Recently my weekends have been fabulous! :) hahahaha!!! :)

Last weekend, I was the official for a Karate Event and the following day, I was at the Dinner and Dance! :) It was like a 2nd prom :) J coming over to prepare and then my mum send us there in the evening :) It was fabulous :)

                                                    Me and J :)

After that, last Sunday, I was at Star Awards 2 with R! :) hahahahaha!!! I think I looked nicer at star awards :) with my new dress :)

                                            Jump Group Shot at Star Awards 2 :)

I think everybody looked FABULOUS! :)

Just today, I went to play badminton at the new Pasir Ris Recreation Centre :) It was fun playing with my cousin and his friends! :) Glad to meet new people ;) 

The following day, I have nothing to do...so, I was thinking of being a girl ;P I prepared recipes for me to cook lunch and bake ;)

I love to bake!

Cheery Cheers! <3

Emo bobo

My cousin, B, has been really down this week :'( I went to accompany him at home today, talked to him, comfort him, hopefully he is better and thought it through...

People do get some hard times in life and don't be surprise if you think you are having bad luck coz of a series of unfortunate events, these events are there to make you grow stronger and to help you deal with the same problem if you are gonna face it again in future :) If you're insecure, you don't need another human being to secure you, I mean, the root of being insecure is that you have a hard time trusting another human being to love you back the way you want to be love...so to feel secure, love yourself the way you want to be loved :)

For me, I can honestly outrightfully say that I am probably the most insecure person I ever knew! I was constantly waiting to be assured by authorities or friends and mostly assured by family :/ however, it does only solve the problem TEMPORARILY it doesn't help in the long run...since I have met that one heartless and materialistic fella, I decided that instead of finding a bf to secure me, why not let the always awesome and wonderful Jesus help me?

I dedicated my time to church :) I helped in Rock Kidz ministry and devote my time to God :) As Teacher Nancy said - "If you take care of God's business, God will take care of yours." As time has proven, I have received a lot from God, divine protection of me and my belonging when I went to backpack in M'sia, divine protection anytime. 

Today, I was at the atm and after I was done, I LEFT MY CARD at the ATM and I almost walked off. I was on my earphones, blasting music, just then, a guy, grabbed me and said "your card." I couldn't hear him as I was listening to music, I could only read his lips and then I realised I forgot my card and I went to retrieve it...

If it wasn't for God to arrange that observant guy to be there, I'm afraid that my card would have been stolen and God knows what it may be used for!

Conclusion, trust God, Think God and Thank God everyday, everything will be fine :)

It's been ages...

Whoa! the last time I blogged, Blogger was still the old template, now, it's been changed :)

So well, as I said I went travelling in march and only return on 6 april :) For CH's party :) It was a super surprise...and it wasn't too bad...just that...aiya, that's another story in all...

I have decided to enrol for JCU Bachelor of Arts (Psychology) and because my dip wasn't recognised, I have to go for a foundation course...and total it's gonna cost $55000!!! around there...OMG!!! so much...but no worries, I have a education fund that will take care of at least 1/4 of the total cost :) Not bad at all! :D JCU is not bad and I've heard that it's gonna be tough! But who cares, Life itself is tough already...so?! Just deal with it and move on! :)

To end of the China Trip, it was awesome but an advice, just go there once and it's more than enough :) One trip that takes around 4 days is more than enough experience :)

Malaysia, was totally AWESOME!! besides it being the first trip I took with only a older cousin, the QUALITY company was all I could ever asked for :) However, I hate Z for cutting short the trip...honestly, when he told me that he had to come back to Singapore early, I really wanted to cry out :'( coz I was indignant that my trip that was planned for another week had to be cut short until VERY SHORT :'( But then I was happy coz he had to come back for a good and joyous reason :)

 Well this is me walking backwards due to the steepness of Penang Hill :)

 At a coffee shop for lunch when we first arrived :) at penang :)

While waiting for gurney drive to open :) we decided to take a pic for momento :)




We didn't take much pictures are we weren't fans of camwhore...(maybe I am) hahaha...so just these few pics :) I hope you guys enjoyed my post as much as I enjoyed my trip :)

haikou day one

Hey guys so I wrote this while I was on the plane to haikou!! My parents wanted to save money and hence we took budget plane :s

well, my experience with budget plane to (tiger airways) is that the seats are very tight, such that if the person taking budget plane is that, the legs have no rooms. Fortunately for me and my siblings, we're small size and that our legs have more than enough room, the space is like taking public bus...my experience this time is that the person behind kept on 'knee-ing' the back of my seat and I could feel it!!!, uncomfortable and all, I was planning to ask the person to stop if he annoys me further...while, the person in front of me, she inclined her seat and being a inconsiderate person, she inclined so that i,felt as if I was trapped...   I pulled down the table to place my tablet to type this and watch movie. If my sisters, wanted to go to the toilet, we have to ask her to not incline so that we could get out...I find that people should be considerate, considering taking budget plane with space constraints...  

So I can't wait to get to haikou and I simply am bored of watching movies on my tablet and I have no nice games on my tablet hence writing this post and publishing later  :-)

After haikou, i'll be going backpacking in Malaysia!!! Budget plane again!! But I suppose it's not that bad as it'll be a short flight to penang :-) my sis is so funny, being a sec 3, she actually brought homework to finishing the plane!!! So hardworking eh?! I was never like that :-P  

We arrived at the airport and we took a cab to our hotel, noble yacht club. The place is super uber cold! !!!! I wore a long sleeve and still wore a jacket...it was around below 18 degrees! :O  

After settling down, we decided to go walk around town and find lunch. We took a cab to town and from there, we went to a snack food street!! My bought a card with pre deposited of 200rmb, the food there is cheap!!! We couldn't finish using the value and we couldn't can actually ask for a refund of the remainding amount!!  

So we set out on a quest to find prepaid card to find call my lil sis that couldn't join us and was left behind in Singapore. However, we couldn't find and decided to take a public bus to wugong temple. the bus to wugong temple cost only 1rmb!!!! Which is equivalent to 20¢ Singapore dollars!  

Next we went to the old street, where the building are old style and rundown :-) the scenery is nice and we went to the the south gate of hainan university for night market, dinner :-)  

To end the day, we took public bus back to our hotel. We slept and get ready for the next day :-)   I'll post about the 2nd day some other time with pictures!  

Cheery cheers :D

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