Lost and gained.

In the month of June, I lost a close friend, and I lost a potential close friend.

I've gain lessons of life and other new friends.

The close friend that I lost, I actually lost him about more than a year for now. I decided to not hang on the that friendship anymore. Coz it really cut me inside. It cut me really deep inside. I can say that I've learnt from this incident through the hard way. That friend never understood me the way I thought he did. It's really saddening to me, well, I would say it was partially my fault for expecting too much out of him. I'm really disappointed that he wasn't of certain intellectual level as compared to his age. He really proved to me that being older doesn't mean wiser. Maybe it's because I'm sensitive, but hey! that's just me. I'm made up of characteristics and one of it is being sensitive. That's part of me and you should just accept me for who I am being my good friend. Instead, he keeps trying to change me. He may think that it's helping me but, I didn't need any help at all. He merely wants me to conform to his ways. He doesn't understand that I view the world differently then he does.

In conclusion, I learnt from this case that I shouldn't expect things out of people. Coz I will always get disappointed. I should get out before I cut myself deeper and deeper. Through this, I saw who my true friends were that will stick by me in times of my need.

I got to know this new friend. I lost a potential close friend because of my foolishness. I had a crush on him as I really admired him for being so smart and fun. I really enjoyed talking to him coz I felt that he was very mature in his thinking, not like any of the guys that I know. I told him my feelings and things were never the same. I should have expected that. I mean, even though we say we can still be friends but there is a difference from the way he treats me before and now. I know. Slowly, we're not even texting anymore. Sure, I'm totally embarrassed about it. I'm moving on, or at least that's what I tell myself. Now, I just wish we can be good friends.

I learnt from this, that if a guy is so good, I should keep him as a friend instead.As friends, I'll never lose him.

What's loss, can't be recovered. I can only cherish what I have at the moment. God, Family and freedom.

Cheery Cheers! :D